Have you ever watched the Cinderella movie that the singer Brandy plays in? If you have you know there is one song that she sings called in my own little corner. Yea that is definitely what I am singing today :) I am content with myself and know that I am working hard and growing every day but I still feel that I am a definite disappointment to others. No matter the achievements that I have or all that I have accomplished that doesn't add up to much. In those moments, I am depressed and feel like withdrawing from the world and isolating myself in my own little corner where I can be whatever I want to be and it be okay. Normally I have my mask up and I can pretend what they say doesn't affect me but those words are arrows shot straight at my heart that no one can see but I can feel and eat at me until the point I am broken. I am in so much pain that my mask falls off and I am left vulnerable. I hate feeling vulnerable and weak.
BUT the best part of being weak and vulnerable is that God wakes me up. He shows me that I cannot handle it all on my own and that he bears my yoke with me. Even though I put on my mask and my icy front that isn't enough to sustain me and protect me that I need to give it all to him and stop trying to do it all myself. Even though I may be in my own little corner, God's in my corner and he believes in me and has my back even when the world is against me :)
