Today Today Today......................UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I went to bed last night with a horrible migraine. Then this morning I was running late and then Jennifer made a big mistake that she should have known better than making. There are days when I feel like such an idiot like I am never going to get this growing up on your own thing right. I feel like a naive little child running around in a place she has no business being in. Does this every go away??? Do other people feel this way???? Or am I the only one????? Some days I want to cry and lay up in my bed because I am doing th best that I can and trying to learn and be responsible but every time I turn around I am not doing so hot or making mistakes constantly. I know that we have to live and learn but some things I thought would come a little naturally.
On a better note, I had fun tonight in my little bible class that I teach. I only had two tonight but I love teaching them. I love making up the games that go along with it even though it gets hard trying to break down the material.
I got another migraine after work and it has followed me and still haunts me to these very moments. I am not quite sure of the cause but I have a feeling that it is the stress that surrounds me and poor Sergio gets so worried. I went and spend some time with my mom. God knows I love her. We never see eye to eye on anything and we definitely think differently and act completely opposite but there are times when she gets me and today was definitely one of those days. She said a lot of things that I needed her to say that I don't think she realized that I needed to hear. I love her with all of heart and would not be where I am today without her. I don't think I tell her enough how much I appreciate and love her. We may not always get along but I know she loves me and would do anything in the world for me. What I have done to deserve her I am not sure, but I know for sure I am thankful and count my blessings to know that God gave her to me as my mommy. She has helped me in so many ways and I don't know where I would be without her love and her support even if it takes her a little to come around.
To leave you with a quote from Mr. Tupac Shakur called The rose that Grew from Concrete
Did u hear about the rose that grew from a crack
in the concrete
Proving nature's laws wrong it learn 2 walk
without having feet
Funny it seems but by keeping its dreams
it learned 2 breathe fresh air
Long live the rose that grew from concrete
when no else even cared!!!!!
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